hello may!

sorry i didn't write last week. i've been kind of stressed and tired lately, and for no reason. last month i've been a little sick of going to work and i honestly don't know why. i started working in december and i've liked the job since then. so that's odd. anyway, last thursday was my last day at work. now i'm going to relax until june... maybe i will make up for the times i didn't write here.

so now that i'm on my summer break, i have to start planning what to do this summer. so what should i do? first of all, i have to finally learn to use my polaroid camera. i don't want to waste any of the film so i'm waiting for a good opportunity to test it. i also should start jogging and i want to make a summer playlist. i'm going to hang out with friends and go shopping with them. on the other hand, i don't want to plan too much, or the holiday doesn't feel like a holiday anymore. what do you like to do at summer?

it wasn't only work that made me feel stressed last month. one day i got a letter in the post saying that i, with many others, have been chosen for an aptitude test for the school i hope to get into. first of all i'm very scared of social situations. so when i got the letter, all i could think of was: "oh god, i have to go there and they're gonna ask me questions and decide my future based on my answers." the letter also said that i had to call there and say i'm coming. phone calls are also scary situations for me. and i only had two days to call there, and i had to go there within a week. i was very annoyed, because it all came so suddenly. i was in a bad mood that evening and the next day but somehow i managed to call the school. the call went surprisingly well.

so after a few days, it was time. when my name was called, i followed a woman to a room, and to my delight there was a dog there. there was also another woman. the two asked me some questions. i expected them to ask different kind of questions though. i don't know how they're going to choose the students for their school based on personality and stuff. after that, they wanted me to get to know the dog. i went and let it sniff me, pet it and gave it a little treat. before i knew it, it was over. i feel like it didn't go very well. i wouldn't be surprised if they didn't choose me. there were lots of others probably more capable than me.

oh well, i guess that's enough rambling for one post. happy may! ☮

"there are some people who could hear you speak a thousand words, and still not understand you. and there are others who will understand - without you even speaking a word."
- yasmin mogahed

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