what am i doing?

i really should start planning these posts earlier... i have nothing interesting to tell you about my week, but i'm just gonna make a little update about what's going on.

so at the moment i'm working at the local newspaper. i started in december and for now, i'm going to be working there until the end of march. i want to try and get into a school next fall. my friend is also trying to get into the same school, so that's cool. the school we are trying to get into would make us zoo-keepers or something like that.

the reason i'm working and not at school is because i started this finnish version of college but i was not feeling very well at the time so i couldn't make it. i needed to get money for travelling and i found the job. now that i have money and am continuing to get it, i'm supposed to go to italy and see my online friend this spring/summer.

i'm proud of myself for getting money and actually having my life in order... kind of. although, i wish i would've been able to continue at college, because i know i'm smart enough to do well in there. i just felt extremely uncomfortable at school at the time (and probably still do) and i lost all interest in studying. i had been a good straight "a" student from first grade to eighth or ninth grade. i suppose i just got tired. and now i don't want to go back to college because all my friends would be years ahead of me and i would feel embarrassed and just generally bad for being in the same grade with people younger than me. i know there's really nothing embarrassing about that, but i'm still not comfortable with the idea. at all.

besides, right now i feel like i want to work with animals in the future, so the school i'm now trying to get into would be a better place than college in that sense.

so that's what's going on in my life. i know this post is different than what i've done so far, but i want to actually write about my life sometimes. when something interesting happens, i'll probably write about it. this wasn't so interesting, but at least now you know what kind of life i'm living right now.

thank you for reading if you made it this far! this was pretty long and i didn't put any pictures so it must have been hard... give yourself a high five for being awesome! if you have any suggestions what kind of posts i should make, i would be glad if you wrote a comment and told me. until next week! ☮

"life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated."

- confucius

girls - the 1975